That's me right now, for the first time in a LONG time. Primary,Work, keeping up with stuff at home. I have several projects at work. My class, my Kids class, the MakeNTake, and the Silent Auction (Melissa and I were put in charge of that!).

There is so much on my mind right now. I have been a little short with Carl and I don't mean to be. I just seem to be a little out there. Also my mom had mentioned some stuff about my dad. (my natural father). From Time to time (since our split again -mutual choice), we hear bits and pieces. My dad is crazy! I can't spell the S word! lol! He tends to get violent. But the recent update - he left his wife (of 10+yrs) with four kids.
I have another brother (a son of his from another affair) who is not living with him. Anyway, my dad has gone off the deep again, rumor has it that he is having an affair with a an illegal (alien) chick (that sounds so wierd typing it out!) and is living in San Diego somewhere.

My dad and I had reconciled our relationship as I was a teenager, and going through some of my own struggles. Those times are still VERY precious to me, I did come to know who he REALLY was and the person inside. That's something I don't think many know. I will NEVER EVER regret that. It saddens me a lot what has happened to him. His wife Nadine is a WONDERFUL person. They were going to counseling, he was on medication and doing SOO well. Fully active in the church. I wonder what happened that had caused that to change.

I don't worry about where I will go or that I will follow his lead by anymeans. I do sense that I struggle with the depression a little and the feelings of being inadequent. He is someone I still care and love very much and that is hard.

I don't know why I am even posting this, just thoughts I am having today. I can't think much more about it or I will cry - so I am best just focusing on Primary and work and Carl and the dogs. Things are good there and that's what's important.